Understood

I sometimes feel alone, even when I am surrounded by so many people. Friends and aquaintances. Just that sometimes even in the presence of 100s you don't find 1 person who can understand you. You are searching for a specific comfort or experiences to be able to sustain your emotional stress during the particular time.
Unfortunately searching for new people can be an even greater struggle. I need to learn how to approach people more.
Learn how to deal with the mistakes of those above you without sounding insulting and you are all on your own. Learn how to be yourself on your own.

DOn't get me wrong I love my friends. And care for them all so much. They are the people who try to understand me, stand by me even when they don't understand and don't judge me when they don't understand.

Thank you guys

We all need people like you.

Target 1. Sucess

OK. After explaining the whole regime I'm going through I am proud to say I have managed to reach my first 5kg weight loss goal. Yay. Seems like what I am doing is working (up till now).
Now I need new goals. New ideas. On what to proceed to in the foloow weeks.
More soup. More fish. More veggies
Less chocolate. Less bread. Less sugar.

I'm so happy about achieving something small already.

Abandon 2. But trying to get back.

Main issue.
Weight loss.
OK I started about 4 weeks ago. At this point in life I have realised that one cannot go for short term "don't eat chocolate and starve yourself" regime. It lasts a week and than I go into choco overload.
This time the aim is change, slowly. You cannoy change your whole idea of life from night to day and expect it to work (if your willpower is as bad as mine). So this works by slowly adding goals to a lifestyle change every week or two, whilst retaining the changes you've already made. I am at my 5th week and I've lost 4 kg which is good. I've been eating chocolate every single day (multiple servings), till now (next week's goal is to reduce the chocolate to 1 serving per day).
Till now I've managed:
Week 1 + 2: Eat vegan till 6pm (no carbohydrates either and than eat a proper meal at 6pm and dessert)
Week 3: Don't eat after 9pm
Week 4: Eat a fruit between 10am and 11am
Week 5: Drink 1 litre of WATER a day.
So all well and good. Still a long way to go. Still need to eat more veggies somewhere between 1pm and 3pm. Reduce chocolate consumption. Eat soup once a week. Eat fish at least once a fortnight. Etc.
Any ideas appreciated.

Back. Must not abandon

I tend to have the bad habit of abandoning most projects once I start them. So now that all my exams are over I have no more excuses not to write again.

Looking forward to watch a LOT of tv shows which I missed during the past 9 months and even new ones running duing summer (True Blood = <3).>

Also new project (yeah I'm full of them. Overly ambitious maybe afterwards I actually get to do something). Make a collection of really good recipes for myself (both ones I make up, recipe book or, my favourite of all, the lovely food blogs which can be found all over the web.\

July = Pride Month!! Yay!!! I'm considering attending at least 1 event from the ones being held in my local scene. I'm still very out of touch with the gay community here but maybe this is the best way to move one step forward. Definately going for the lesbian movie they are screening (and draging a friend along too).

I'm extremely happy at the moment so might as well enjoy it to the full (since once my exam results arrive things might change)

Take 2.

Such a sad week has gone by and the stress just keeps rising and rising.

1). Bea Arthur's death. You've probably been hearing about this all week but I still have not come to terms with it and could only write about it now. Just yesterday I caught a rerun of the golden girls and Bea Arthur seemed just a vibrant and sarcastic as always. I guess as Dorothy she will always live on my memories and at the moment I can hold on to that. Even though I never knew her personally she was part of my life within The Golden Girls setting in a way few other series are (I would have to say even more than The L word is too). 

2). I'm sick. Was even feverish a few days ago. It's not the swine flu they told me (I hope they got it right, if not I would be the first case in my country). I am missing lectures at university (which I really should not) and I dis not have any energy to study (or even surf the internet) these part few days. Yes, I was THAT bad!

3). A few days ago I heard a conversation between to female teenagers on the bus. From what I could understand a friend of theirs had just come out to them and they were discussing her. I really hope none of the words they were saying would ever reach their friend and I hope they think long and thorough about what they said because if they are truely her friend they should not be saying things like "ewwww", "muff muncher", "disgusting", "perverted", "not normal sex". Btw, at one point they also mentioned that both of them "accepted" her.

I really wish I had friends like these (Yeah right). I'm not sure whether to cry, laugh or do both (but then I think I'd end up peeing in my pants if I tried doing both).

Three bad things are enough I think for now.

On a more positive note, I just found out that during Pride Week they are going to show "I Can't Think Straight". This is such a good move and better than last year's "The Gymnast". Definately will be going to see it, again.

Song No.1

Ok First post up. I think I should start with an introduction on me and the meaning of the blog (well till now, it might change as I go along).

I am a 20 years old from Malta. I study at the local university here. I am an LGBT youth who is not very much into the gay scene (and I am not very much out either). I have wonderful friends who I love and cherish and a family with both positive and negative qualities.

My interests in life revolve around reading (mainly fiction), writing, movies (generally a good romantic comment will lighten up any day), dabbing my hands in the kitchen, LGBT related media and news, my computer (heh, I couldn't do without) and a myriad of other things I appreciate from my daily life.

Through this blog I hope to cover instances and news that has particularly hit me (whatever the topic may be). A creative website, a proposterous commercial, a funny event and more. Also any thoughts and feelings that I feel particular enough to share about.

Hope someone, someday, sometime will read something from here and feel it has touched them in some way. Now we see. Depends how crappy this stuff I come up with turns up.

P.S. Becareful for notes of sarcasm along the way.